Mercedes decided that 6am was a great time to wake up...didn't thrill me, cause I hadn't gone to bed till 3!
Got some groceries...everything is so dang expensive...blah!
Did photo shoot...finally have pics I need for a LO!
Took a nap!
Played on the 'puter..think I'm getting addicted to reading blogs!
Cleaned my house!
Couldn't get Mercedes asleep until 11:30...don't know how she managed to still be awake?
Ready to start my LO, except after cleaning my house I kinda lost my energy, so now it sits to wait yet one more day!
Oh the excitement in my life is almost beyond comprehension....any thrilling Friday night for me! lol
Saturday, August 27, 2005
Thursday, August 25, 2005
The germs won...but my mom has baby fish!
Yup, I've surrendered to the germs and finally admitted, I AM SICK! The dr. confirmed it with a prompt diagnosis of bronchitis, followed by a prescription for antibiotics & some pretty good cough medicine. This morning was pretty much a write off...barely managed to drag my congested head & body to the dr's & pharmacy after making sure my child had a healthy breakfast of Corn Pops! She went to my mom's for awhile & I dropped onto my couch, from whence I did not move for almost 2 whole hours. I knew my mom had gone out, leaving Ferrin in charge, so I figured I better go check on the kids...my sister in law was in Lethbridge so a couple of her kids were over too.
When I got there the kids were playing happily (miracles never cease) so I grabbed my camera and managed to get a few pictures of the backyard. My mom had bought 6 goldfish and/or Koi at the beginning of the summer, and now although there are only 2 left, they have gotten quite large...and well procreated like rabbits!! I managed to count 18 babies at one point and my mom says she's counted as many as 23...I couldn't see them all today, but I do think I got about 11 0r 13 in a couple of the pictures! I'll post em, so count for yourselves...just remember baby fish shadows look remarkably like baby fish!
After my 5 minutes excursion with the camera I was pretty much worn out again, so I came back to my couch and watched the movie Hitch. Now this was a movie that I had thought would be good, but I wasn't really in the mood to watch it today, cause, well I felt like a bag of poo & didn't feel like laughing about anything. However the disk for Bowling for Columbine wouldn't work so it was Hitch or a movie about Joseph Smith, and well, I definately wasn't in the mood for Mr. Smith! Now watching a movie that you are not in the mood for...it's weird...I really had wanted to watch Bowling for Columbine, and I was pretty choked when it wouldn't work...you know that kind of feeling like you get when you are really craving something and you know it's in your fridge at home, and all day, all you can think about is how good it's gonna taste & how bad you want it...and then you get home...and someone else ATE it!!! You know, that feeling! And even though you have a full fridge of other food, NOTHING looks good, cause all you wanted was that one thing you were craving....well it's kinda like that! So I finally decided to just watch Hitch even though I didn't think I was in the mood...and I ended up laughing my ass off! Literally laughing out loud...which does not happen often when watching a movie alone and you are sick and miserable! I may even watch it again!
Tonight I managed to get a small burst of energy...enough to feed my child a partially balanced meal, tidy my kitchen and clean the sinks (I have a thing about a clean sink), and even read and answered all my email. Mercedes was also in a good mood tonight and for some reason thought it was hilarious to run around the house naked, waggin her butt and saying "nana nana boo b00"...gotta love four year olds!
So that's my day...mostly...and I'll add some pics of the baby fish...btw Mercedes tells me the big fish are named Sunshine & polka dot...although my mom tells me the other kids have named them something else...I really don't think the fish care one way or the other, doesn't matter what ya call them, they ain't coming! lol
When I got there the kids were playing happily (miracles never cease) so I grabbed my camera and managed to get a few pictures of the backyard. My mom had bought 6 goldfish and/or Koi at the beginning of the summer, and now although there are only 2 left, they have gotten quite large...and well procreated like rabbits!! I managed to count 18 babies at one point and my mom says she's counted as many as 23...I couldn't see them all today, but I do think I got about 11 0r 13 in a couple of the pictures! I'll post em, so count for yourselves...just remember baby fish shadows look remarkably like baby fish!
After my 5 minutes excursion with the camera I was pretty much worn out again, so I came back to my couch and watched the movie Hitch. Now this was a movie that I had thought would be good, but I wasn't really in the mood to watch it today, cause, well I felt like a bag of poo & didn't feel like laughing about anything. However the disk for Bowling for Columbine wouldn't work so it was Hitch or a movie about Joseph Smith, and well, I definately wasn't in the mood for Mr. Smith! Now watching a movie that you are not in the mood for...it's weird...I really had wanted to watch Bowling for Columbine, and I was pretty choked when it wouldn't work...you know that kind of feeling like you get when you are really craving something and you know it's in your fridge at home, and all day, all you can think about is how good it's gonna taste & how bad you want it...and then you get home...and someone else ATE it!!! You know, that feeling! And even though you have a full fridge of other food, NOTHING looks good, cause all you wanted was that one thing you were craving....well it's kinda like that! So I finally decided to just watch Hitch even though I didn't think I was in the mood...and I ended up laughing my ass off! Literally laughing out loud...which does not happen often when watching a movie alone and you are sick and miserable! I may even watch it again!
Tonight I managed to get a small burst of energy...enough to feed my child a partially balanced meal, tidy my kitchen and clean the sinks (I have a thing about a clean sink), and even read and answered all my email. Mercedes was also in a good mood tonight and for some reason thought it was hilarious to run around the house naked, waggin her butt and saying "nana nana boo b00"...gotta love four year olds!
So that's my day...mostly...and I'll add some pics of the baby fish...btw Mercedes tells me the big fish are named Sunshine & polka dot...although my mom tells me the other kids have named them something else...I really don't think the fish care one way or the other, doesn't matter what ya call them, they ain't coming! lol
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
Dreary day #2...
Another day of rain & gray skies...Blah!!! I woke up feeling even more congested today, so it looks like I officially have a cold...I hate being sick...I really hate being sick with a sick 4 year old...but them's the joys of being a mom!
Broke down today and had to turn on my furnace....I had a three sweater rule...if I was wearing three sweaters & still cold, then I had to turn on the heat...and today I had too! I was trying so hard to make it through August though, but hopefully the weather will warm up again soon. Only too soon, winter will be here...Blah!!!
Didn't do much today, except watch Love Song for Bobby Long and Shrek 2 both of which I thought were very good! I can't believe I hadn't seen Shrek 2 yet, but I finally watched it today with Mercedes and had a few laughs...and I really enjoyed Bobby Long...started it last night and finished it this morning when Mercedes was over at Grandma's. I do miss watching movies with someone though...I mean other than Mercedes...I miss being able to talk to someone about the movie, right after it's over...maybe I need to look for a movie message board! lol I crack myself up sometimes!
Crack-in-the-box phoned tonight to talk to his daughter...he's still not working, and still thinks that there is a hope for us...NOT!!! The best thing I ever did for my health was leave him...I will NEVER live like that again! At least he didn't wait a month to call his daughter this time...and he did take the initiative himself, without me having to call him. Mercedes didn't even want to talk to him at first, but I bribed her with a candy...wonder if he appreciates how much I would have just rather said "she doesn't want to talk to you" and slammed the phone down? Probably not. But there are alot of things I'm sure he doesn't appreciate....things like bedtime struggles night after night when I'm already dead tired, or making what she wants for breakfast only for her to decide she wants something else, and then carrying her kicking and screaming to her room for a time out cause I refuse to be her short-order cook. What about the 20 minutes it takes to get out the door because she HAS to do everything herself, except she can't, so she gets frustrated and screams! Or the times she tells me she misses her daddy and doesn't love me anymore and wants to go be with him, and I just take her in my arms and hug her and tell her I know she misses her daddy, but I love her and she has to stay here with me, but hopefully he will come to visit her or call her soon. Or the times I've printed off pictures of him & put them in frames for her to have next to her bed, so she can look at them before she goes to sleep. What about the 3 am wake up calls for a glass of juice only to get up the next morning and find the full glass still sitting on her night table? Or the email that takes 2 hours to write, because I keep getting interrupted to put on a movie, play a game, get more juice or crackers, or supper, or let her play her computer game? What about budgetting my money to make sure there is enough to buy her favorite cereal and still have enough left over for a trip to the dollar store to buy her a treat? Or does he appreciate the 60 + bandaids I've put on this month, each accompanied by a hug, a kiss, and a snuggle...for each little boo-boo...even the ones invisible to the naked eye. I doubt he appreciates any of it...nor do I think he is even aware of it...but that's ok, cause I don't do it for him...I do it for her...because I don't know where I'd be without her, and I don't even want to try to imagine.
She is my princess, my daughter, my heart and my soul...and I love her with everything that I am...and for her, I would do anything!
Broke down today and had to turn on my furnace....I had a three sweater rule...if I was wearing three sweaters & still cold, then I had to turn on the heat...and today I had too! I was trying so hard to make it through August though, but hopefully the weather will warm up again soon. Only too soon, winter will be here...Blah!!!
Didn't do much today, except watch Love Song for Bobby Long and Shrek 2 both of which I thought were very good! I can't believe I hadn't seen Shrek 2 yet, but I finally watched it today with Mercedes and had a few laughs...and I really enjoyed Bobby Long...started it last night and finished it this morning when Mercedes was over at Grandma's. I do miss watching movies with someone though...I mean other than Mercedes...I miss being able to talk to someone about the movie, right after it's over...maybe I need to look for a movie message board! lol I crack myself up sometimes!
Crack-in-the-box phoned tonight to talk to his daughter...he's still not working, and still thinks that there is a hope for us...NOT!!! The best thing I ever did for my health was leave him...I will NEVER live like that again! At least he didn't wait a month to call his daughter this time...and he did take the initiative himself, without me having to call him. Mercedes didn't even want to talk to him at first, but I bribed her with a candy...wonder if he appreciates how much I would have just rather said "she doesn't want to talk to you" and slammed the phone down? Probably not. But there are alot of things I'm sure he doesn't appreciate....things like bedtime struggles night after night when I'm already dead tired, or making what she wants for breakfast only for her to decide she wants something else, and then carrying her kicking and screaming to her room for a time out cause I refuse to be her short-order cook. What about the 20 minutes it takes to get out the door because she HAS to do everything herself, except she can't, so she gets frustrated and screams! Or the times she tells me she misses her daddy and doesn't love me anymore and wants to go be with him, and I just take her in my arms and hug her and tell her I know she misses her daddy, but I love her and she has to stay here with me, but hopefully he will come to visit her or call her soon. Or the times I've printed off pictures of him & put them in frames for her to have next to her bed, so she can look at them before she goes to sleep. What about the 3 am wake up calls for a glass of juice only to get up the next morning and find the full glass still sitting on her night table? Or the email that takes 2 hours to write, because I keep getting interrupted to put on a movie, play a game, get more juice or crackers, or supper, or let her play her computer game? What about budgetting my money to make sure there is enough to buy her favorite cereal and still have enough left over for a trip to the dollar store to buy her a treat? Or does he appreciate the 60 + bandaids I've put on this month, each accompanied by a hug, a kiss, and a snuggle...for each little boo-boo...even the ones invisible to the naked eye. I doubt he appreciates any of it...nor do I think he is even aware of it...but that's ok, cause I don't do it for him...I do it for her...because I don't know where I'd be without her, and I don't even want to try to imagine.
She is my princess, my daughter, my heart and my soul...and I love her with everything that I am...and for her, I would do anything!
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
Dreary day...
The weather has been cold & dreary here all day...doesn't help the spirits much either. I did go to Tales for Tots with Sonda & Sawyer, Hope and Mercedes. It was offered through the local library and they did a fantastic job! They read stories, then played some games, decorated treat bags, had a pinata & then got to make alien cookies, astonaut pudding and drink tang! Can you guess that the theme was space? lol The kids had a ball and I was very impressed with how well run it was...gotta love the library!
Mercedes wanted to go over and play with Sonda's kids for a while, so I came home and just felt kinda blah, so I started watching a movie, but ended up taking a nap. I don't really feel depressed (well maybe a little), but I sure have not had any energy the last few days. I'm just hoping that it's a cold or something...don't here that too often! lol
I had ordered two of these stamps. I'm very impressed with the company, as the shipping was very prompt and they even threw in a little freebie stamp. Anyways I took them over to my mom's to show her and get my stepdad to make me some wooden blocks to mount them on. My mom and I decided to make a quick trip downtown and on the way back she said to me "isn't it kinda nice to not have to explain to anyone what you did all day, or what's for supper, or worry about what kind of mood they'll be in when they get home from work" and I said "yes, it is nice...it is very nice, but it's kinda lonely"
I've been feeling lonely alot lately. I don't miss Brad per se...I just miss adult conversation. My mom hasn't seemed too interested in just sitting and visiting lately, and I don't really know anyone else yet. My sister, but she's always busy with her 6 kids and well, we would not be BEST FRIENDS if we weren't sisters...FRIENDS maybe, but not BEST FRIENDS! Maybe I just feel it more right now cause I don't have any long distance for another week...but still, there is something to be said about fact-to-face conversation. Without feeling like the other person would rather be doing something else (my mom) or doesn't have time (my mom & my sister). I just miss having someone to watch a movie with...you know I don't generally like talking when I'm trying to watch a movie, but someone to make occasional comments like "did you see that?" or "I can't believe that just happened" and then someone to talk to after the movie is over... like "that was soooo great" or "WHAT a stupid movie" ... just talking.
It amazes me how I can be so glad to have time to myself and yet feel so lonely at the same time. I miss having friends pop by just to visit...I miss having conversations with someone over the age of 4 at the dinner table ... but that's life...you always sacfrice something for something else...so I need to just wipe these tears from my cheeks, and buck up little camper...things could be worse, I could still be living with a alcoholic crackhead....AND THANK GOD I'M NOT!!!
Mercedes wanted to go over and play with Sonda's kids for a while, so I came home and just felt kinda blah, so I started watching a movie, but ended up taking a nap. I don't really feel depressed (well maybe a little), but I sure have not had any energy the last few days. I'm just hoping that it's a cold or something...don't here that too often! lol
I had ordered two of these stamps. I'm very impressed with the company, as the shipping was very prompt and they even threw in a little freebie stamp. Anyways I took them over to my mom's to show her and get my stepdad to make me some wooden blocks to mount them on. My mom and I decided to make a quick trip downtown and on the way back she said to me "isn't it kinda nice to not have to explain to anyone what you did all day, or what's for supper, or worry about what kind of mood they'll be in when they get home from work" and I said "yes, it is nice...it is very nice, but it's kinda lonely"
I've been feeling lonely alot lately. I don't miss Brad per se...I just miss adult conversation. My mom hasn't seemed too interested in just sitting and visiting lately, and I don't really know anyone else yet. My sister, but she's always busy with her 6 kids and well, we would not be BEST FRIENDS if we weren't sisters...FRIENDS maybe, but not BEST FRIENDS! Maybe I just feel it more right now cause I don't have any long distance for another week...but still, there is something to be said about fact-to-face conversation. Without feeling like the other person would rather be doing something else (my mom) or doesn't have time (my mom & my sister). I just miss having someone to watch a movie with...you know I don't generally like talking when I'm trying to watch a movie, but someone to make occasional comments like "did you see that?" or "I can't believe that just happened" and then someone to talk to after the movie is over... like "that was soooo great" or "WHAT a stupid movie" ... just talking.
It amazes me how I can be so glad to have time to myself and yet feel so lonely at the same time. I miss having friends pop by just to visit...I miss having conversations with someone over the age of 4 at the dinner table ... but that's life...you always sacfrice something for something else...so I need to just wipe these tears from my cheeks, and buck up little camper...things could be worse, I could still be living with a alcoholic crackhead....AND THANK GOD I'M NOT!!!
Monday, August 22, 2005
All & All a pretty good day!
Woke up this morning feeling a little shitty...still tired & run down...bit of a headache & stomach ache. I must be fighting the cold/flu that everyone else has had over the last week or so. Anyways I needed smokes so Mercedes went over to my mom's & I ran to the grocery store, where of course, they did not have my brand of tobacco...so I just bought a pack & hopefully they'll have my brand tomorrow or Wednesday.
One of the reasons I haven't been around much the last couple days was because I lost my 'e' key...and what is the most used letter in the alphabet...you got it, the 'E'! So I decided I better go get a new keyboard. I had talked to my brother-in-law last night and he said the prices of the local computer store were quite competitive & I should go for the keyboard/optical mouse combo...so I did! It was kinda funny cause I walked into the store and 'the guy' was busy with someone else so I was just looking around, cause I also have a new cd burner & new scanner on my wishlists, so it's always good to check things out. Anyways 'the guy' finally comes over and asks if he can help me and I tell him I'm looking for a keyboard...so he's like, well I have this one, or this one or this one...I'm like ok...besides the price difference what's different about these? Like HELLO, sell it to me!!! lol Anyways I got a decent price and the guy was nice and I'm happy with my purchase, so all is well.
Then this afternoon, my mom, stepdad, sister & brother in law all went out to my Grandma's farm to pick up her piano for me. She had decided that she didn't need it anymore and when she offered it to me, I jumped at the chance! I haven't had my own piano for over 10 years now and I've been missing it soooo badly! It's a really nice piano, and once it's tuned it's gonna sound great! Plus I already have 2 students lined up for fall, so it will be nice to be able to practice myself again. I'm just so excited to have a piano again...and what a wonderful gift/heirloom...I have many memories of playing this piano for my grandma & grandpa when I was growing up & now I get to teach my own child how to play on it! There just aren't words enough for how much this means to me!
No scrappin today, but hopefully I'll feel better tomorrow and can get some things started...kinda waiting on the order I made last Friday cause I need some of the things I ordered to complete the LO's I have in mind. All and all though, today was a great day!
One of the reasons I haven't been around much the last couple days was because I lost my 'e' key...and what is the most used letter in the alphabet...you got it, the 'E'! So I decided I better go get a new keyboard. I had talked to my brother-in-law last night and he said the prices of the local computer store were quite competitive & I should go for the keyboard/optical mouse combo...so I did! It was kinda funny cause I walked into the store and 'the guy' was busy with someone else so I was just looking around, cause I also have a new cd burner & new scanner on my wishlists, so it's always good to check things out. Anyways 'the guy' finally comes over and asks if he can help me and I tell him I'm looking for a keyboard...so he's like, well I have this one, or this one or this one...I'm like ok...besides the price difference what's different about these? Like HELLO, sell it to me!!! lol Anyways I got a decent price and the guy was nice and I'm happy with my purchase, so all is well.
Then this afternoon, my mom, stepdad, sister & brother in law all went out to my Grandma's farm to pick up her piano for me. She had decided that she didn't need it anymore and when she offered it to me, I jumped at the chance! I haven't had my own piano for over 10 years now and I've been missing it soooo badly! It's a really nice piano, and once it's tuned it's gonna sound great! Plus I already have 2 students lined up for fall, so it will be nice to be able to practice myself again. I'm just so excited to have a piano again...and what a wonderful gift/heirloom...I have many memories of playing this piano for my grandma & grandpa when I was growing up & now I get to teach my own child how to play on it! There just aren't words enough for how much this means to me!
No scrappin today, but hopefully I'll feel better tomorrow and can get some things started...kinda waiting on the order I made last Friday cause I need some of the things I ordered to complete the LO's I have in mind. All and all though, today was a great day!
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