It's been a few weeks...

On Feb 12, I had a seizure! Luckily Brad was here and helped me and then got me to the dr.'s right away. They did a bunch of blood tests and I have to go for a CAT scan next week and then an EEG the week after, to make sure that nothing is too serious. I'm hoping that it's just one of those things that just happens once and no one really knows why. I've also been having some problems with hypoglycemia and have had to start carrying candy around with me, but it doesn't always work so the dr. said he will keep it in mind as all these test results start coming back. Here's hoping it's all just nothing major.

The seizure scared both Brad and I. I have never heard his voice like that before...he was so panicky and just kept saying "I love you so much, please be ok". I have no memory of the seizure itself last thing I remember I was sitting on the couch talking to Brad and then the next thing I'm laying down on the couch and Brad is slapping my hand and yelling "OMG you just had a seizure...I have to get you to the hospital" It took a good 5 - 10 minutes for me to really even be aware enough to comprehend what he was actually saying. I didn't even believe him at first because I was so out of it that I just couldn't focus on what he was saying. I didn't want to go to the hospital at first cause I honestly felt too weak & nauseous to be able to walk to the car, but after about 20 minutes of still not feeling well, I finally agreed to seek some medical assistance. I saw my dr. within about an hour of the seizure so he was about to get labs done at that time. Now we just have to wait and see what the other tests will show.

Anyway something happened that day that has really turned our relationship around. Not only was Brad so freaked but he was actually scared that I could die since I was seizing so hard that I quit breathing and according to Brad my lips went completely blue and he said it was the scariest thing he's ever seen. I did only the other hand get a little bonus from that seizure...I had been battling severe depression but since the seizure I feel great mood wise! lol My psychiatrist said basically I did give myself electro-shock therapy! lol So from that perspective at least something good came from something not so great.

So every since then Brad and I have been trying to make this work...again! I know that I have lots of reasons to never give him another chance, but I do honestly believe that he is really trying. He hasn't acted like this in years. Plus I've really been enjoying being with him and us being a family again. And I've been trying to help Brad avoid dangerous situations, and so far so good. We had really drifted apart and it feels like we are actually acting like a loving married couple. And of course Mercedes is thrilled. It's fun being reminded how much we used to enjoy each other and I'm loving the efforts that he's been making to get his life on track and make this work.

Yesterday we got our tax refund and we each got to do some shopping...Brad finally got his 42" flat screen tv, and then we bought some stuff for around the house and of course I had to stop at the scrapbook store. I'm making an album for my Grandma and I got most of the supplies that I'll need yesterday. All & all a great day.

I'll have to come post some pics a little later, just thought I better do this blog entry before I forget again! lol