Wow, two nights in a row...I haven't done that for ages!! Today was a busy day, as paydays always seem to be. The day started out less than joyful with Mercedes not wanting to go to school. Finally 5 minutes before school started she agreed to go rather than have to spend the day in her bedroom. After I dropped her off at school I went to the video store to get some movies for the weekend. The only way to get any new movies on a Friday is if you go right after they open. From there I went and picked up Brad for lunch and then drove him around from place to place. After taking him back to work I went down to the craft store to get some crackle medium and ribbon for an altered clipboard that I'm making. By then it was time to get Mercedes. Luckily she had a great day at school so she was glad that she went.
Spent the rest of the afternoon doing other running around. This evening I finally went and laid down because I had been feeling naseaous all day with a bad headache all week long. I think it might be a side effect from one of my meds. I've also been getting really shaky lately. Sometimes it's so bad I can't even roll a smoke. I have to remember to bring it up with the dr. next time I see him.
Nothing too exciting planned for the rest of the weekend. I'm almost done the dvd slideshow, so hopefully I can buy some blank dvds, and decorate the cases so they'll be done. I love gifts that I can give to multiple people! We've decided to get Brad's parents a dvd player for Christmas so that they can play their Mercedes slideshow. lol I just can't believe that I'm being so organized this year. I usually leave everything until the last minute, but so far so good. I should have at least half done by the end of November. Maybe I'll even get a chance to do a little baking this year.
Saturday, November 04, 2006
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Back on the horse...
Decided it was time to start keeping up with my blog again. It'll be a good way to monitor my moods and my creativity. The weather here is freezing this last week, with lots of snow. I really dislike winter!
Last night I finished a 16 x 20 canvas that I made for my inlaws for Christmas. I also started a dvd slideshow of Mercedes pictures that I plan to make lots of copies of and give to extended family. Last year I waited until the week before Christmas so I was up all night for a couple days before the 25th last year. With the way things are going this year, I could have everything done before Dec!! I have never in my life been ready for Christmas before December. :)
Been really tired this week and had no energy with a bad headache everyday. Don't see my dr again until the beginning of Dec, so hopefully things get better before then. Well, the head is aching so I can't think of anything else right now. I'll try to be much more diligent in writing from now on.
Last night I finished a 16 x 20 canvas that I made for my inlaws for Christmas. I also started a dvd slideshow of Mercedes pictures that I plan to make lots of copies of and give to extended family. Last year I waited until the week before Christmas so I was up all night for a couple days before the 25th last year. With the way things are going this year, I could have everything done before Dec!! I have never in my life been ready for Christmas before December. :)
Been really tired this week and had no energy with a bad headache everyday. Don't see my dr again until the beginning of Dec, so hopefully things get better before then. Well, the head is aching so I can't think of anything else right now. I'll try to be much more diligent in writing from now on.
Monday, June 05, 2006
Let's try this again...
Ya, ya I know it's been three months since my last post. Life around here has been very busy though, so that's my excuse! :) Brad and I are together again which has made me very happy and life has been going great! Planted a garden this year...my first one ever, along with some flower pots and some annuals in the front beds. Everyday I go out and wander through the yard seeing how things are growing...it's so exciting to see the first little seedlings making their way up through the soil.
Haven't done all that much scrappin lately due to the fact that I've been spending so much time outside. I did make another altered canvas and have been working on some LO's for a friend of mine. I've also got the baby album started but not yet finished. Lately I've been trying to get a bunch of cards made because I'm hoping to start selling them. I have enough supplies and experience now that I can make a nice card from scratch in under 10 minutes...less if I use a design I've already come up with. I really enjoy making cards. I think it's cause they are small and quick to make so I get that immediately feeling of accomplishment. I also did some ATC's a couple weeks ago...love making them also for the same reasons.
Well it's pretty late and I still have a few things to get done so I'll have to post pictures later...hopefully I'll get them posted before another three months have passed! :)
Haven't done all that much scrappin lately due to the fact that I've been spending so much time outside. I did make another altered canvas and have been working on some LO's for a friend of mine. I've also got the baby album started but not yet finished. Lately I've been trying to get a bunch of cards made because I'm hoping to start selling them. I have enough supplies and experience now that I can make a nice card from scratch in under 10 minutes...less if I use a design I've already come up with. I really enjoy making cards. I think it's cause they are small and quick to make so I get that immediately feeling of accomplishment. I also did some ATC's a couple weeks ago...love making them also for the same reasons.
Well it's pretty late and I still have a few things to get done so I'll have to post pictures later...hopefully I'll get them posted before another three months have passed! :)
Saturday, March 25, 2006
another late night...
I don't know what is with me lately but I just can't seem to get to bed at a decent hour! Part of it is because I have been really busy lately creating and I seem to do that best in the wee hours of the morning and Mercedes has been staying up really late too, so I have to stay up even later just to get some me time.
Last night I started on an altered canvas project cause I felt the need to make something for myself before I start on another gift album. All I've done so far is paint the canvas and pick a picture of Mercedes that I want to use. Where it's going to go from there, I'm not sure yet. It's all still bouncing around in my head until I have my ah-ha moment...it'll come and till it does I just keep adding washes and glazes to my background color.
Taught piano lessons today and then I gave my neice a whole whack of scrapbook supplies that I'll never use...she was thrilled. Then I made a big batch of chili and Mercedes was thrilled! lol Now I think I will add another wash to the canvas, maybe pop in a movie or just go to bed....maybe if I actually got some sleep my project would start coming easier. then again, maybe not. :)
Last night I started on an altered canvas project cause I felt the need to make something for myself before I start on another gift album. All I've done so far is paint the canvas and pick a picture of Mercedes that I want to use. Where it's going to go from there, I'm not sure yet. It's all still bouncing around in my head until I have my ah-ha moment...it'll come and till it does I just keep adding washes and glazes to my background color.
Taught piano lessons today and then I gave my neice a whole whack of scrapbook supplies that I'll never use...she was thrilled. Then I made a big batch of chili and Mercedes was thrilled! lol Now I think I will add another wash to the canvas, maybe pop in a movie or just go to bed....maybe if I actually got some sleep my project would start coming easier. then again, maybe not. :)
Thursday, March 23, 2006
Just a quick note...
Today was my mom's birthday and I made her a bunch of cards and a paper bag album about her beautiful backyard. She was thrilled and it made all the late nights so worth it, knowing that she really appreciated all the work I had put into it. Made me feel good to give her something that I had truly put my heart into. We had a nice family dinner with my sister's family and it was just a pleasant evening all the way around. Now for a quick breather for a day or two before I dive head first into my next big project...a baby album. This will be the first time I've made an album without pictures so it may be interesting, but it's good to keep giving those creative muscles a work out now and then! ;) Other than that I need to restock my card supply since I've given 40 away this month and now have none left for myself! lol
If you want to check out the paper bag album you can find it in my picture trail album at http://www.picturetrail.com/mercedesmommy2002 Thanks for looking and have a great night! :)
If you want to check out the paper bag album you can find it in my picture trail album at http://www.picturetrail.com/mercedesmommy2002 Thanks for looking and have a great night! :)
Sunday, March 19, 2006
So it's been awhile...
Decided that I should get back into the habit of blogging again, if for no other reason that it will help with journaling for scrapbook layouts!
I've actually been pretty busy lately...I've made 40 cards this month and am currently trying to get a little paper bag album made for my mom for her birthday on Wednesday. I really don't know why I always seem to think of these things at the last minute! lol Oh well it is starting to come together nicely and as soon as I have a few uninterupted hours, I'm sure I can get it finished. I think she will really like it as I'm also giving her a bunch of cards too. She bought me a pack of 250 sheets of nice white cardstock and told me flat out that she wanted cards for her birthday, so she's getting some! Nothing like being subtle! lol
I need to get a set of coasters made for my girlfriend next week also and then I'll be starting on a baby album. My cousin had their first baby a couple weeks ago and I decided to make them an album...they'll just have to add the pictures. I'll be seeing them on Easter so I have a couple weeks at least to work on it! I actually would have started earlier except I had to order most of the stuff online and she ended up having to backorder some of it, so I told her to just hold the order until she could send it all at once. As far as I know it was mailed on Friday so I'm really hoping that it'll get here by mid-week. I've never made an album without pictures before so it should be interesting, but I enjoy stretching my creative muscles! I've also been working on an Art Journal with some girls from my scrappin message board and that's been alot of fun. Unforetunately I am now 2 weeks behind, but I'll work on it as I find the time.
So that's most of what's been going on around here lately and what's scheduled for the immediate future! I'll try to be much more diligent in keeping up my blog. :)
I've actually been pretty busy lately...I've made 40 cards this month and am currently trying to get a little paper bag album made for my mom for her birthday on Wednesday. I really don't know why I always seem to think of these things at the last minute! lol Oh well it is starting to come together nicely and as soon as I have a few uninterupted hours, I'm sure I can get it finished. I think she will really like it as I'm also giving her a bunch of cards too. She bought me a pack of 250 sheets of nice white cardstock and told me flat out that she wanted cards for her birthday, so she's getting some! Nothing like being subtle! lol
I need to get a set of coasters made for my girlfriend next week also and then I'll be starting on a baby album. My cousin had their first baby a couple weeks ago and I decided to make them an album...they'll just have to add the pictures. I'll be seeing them on Easter so I have a couple weeks at least to work on it! I actually would have started earlier except I had to order most of the stuff online and she ended up having to backorder some of it, so I told her to just hold the order until she could send it all at once. As far as I know it was mailed on Friday so I'm really hoping that it'll get here by mid-week. I've never made an album without pictures before so it should be interesting, but I enjoy stretching my creative muscles! I've also been working on an Art Journal with some girls from my scrappin message board and that's been alot of fun. Unforetunately I am now 2 weeks behind, but I'll work on it as I find the time.
So that's most of what's been going on around here lately and what's scheduled for the immediate future! I'll try to be much more diligent in keeping up my blog. :)
Saturday, October 08, 2005
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Saturday, August 27, 2005
Long day...
Mercedes decided that 6am was a great time to wake up...didn't thrill me, cause I hadn't gone to bed till 3!
Got some groceries...everything is so dang expensive...blah!
Did photo shoot...finally have pics I need for a LO!
Took a nap!
Played on the 'puter..think I'm getting addicted to reading blogs!
Cleaned my house!
Couldn't get Mercedes asleep until 11:30...don't know how she managed to still be awake?
Ready to start my LO, except after cleaning my house I kinda lost my energy, so now it sits to wait yet one more day!
Oh the excitement in my life is almost beyond comprehension....any thrilling Friday night for me! lol
Got some groceries...everything is so dang expensive...blah!
Did photo shoot...finally have pics I need for a LO!
Took a nap!
Played on the 'puter..think I'm getting addicted to reading blogs!
Cleaned my house!
Couldn't get Mercedes asleep until 11:30...don't know how she managed to still be awake?
Ready to start my LO, except after cleaning my house I kinda lost my energy, so now it sits to wait yet one more day!
Oh the excitement in my life is almost beyond comprehension....any thrilling Friday night for me! lol
Thursday, August 25, 2005
The germs won...but my mom has baby fish!
Yup, I've surrendered to the germs and finally admitted, I AM SICK! The dr. confirmed it with a prompt diagnosis of bronchitis, followed by a prescription for antibiotics & some pretty good cough medicine. This morning was pretty much a write off...barely managed to drag my congested head & body to the dr's & pharmacy after making sure my child had a healthy breakfast of Corn Pops! She went to my mom's for awhile & I dropped onto my couch, from whence I did not move for almost 2 whole hours. I knew my mom had gone out, leaving Ferrin in charge, so I figured I better go check on the kids...my sister in law was in Lethbridge so a couple of her kids were over too.
When I got there the kids were playing happily (miracles never cease) so I grabbed my camera and managed to get a few pictures of the backyard. My mom had bought 6 goldfish and/or Koi at the beginning of the summer, and now although there are only 2 left, they have gotten quite large...and well procreated like rabbits!! I managed to count 18 babies at one point and my mom says she's counted as many as 23...I couldn't see them all today, but I do think I got about 11 0r 13 in a couple of the pictures! I'll post em, so count for yourselves...just remember baby fish shadows look remarkably like baby fish!
After my 5 minutes excursion with the camera I was pretty much worn out again, so I came back to my couch and watched the movie Hitch. Now this was a movie that I had thought would be good, but I wasn't really in the mood to watch it today, cause, well I felt like a bag of poo & didn't feel like laughing about anything. However the disk for Bowling for Columbine wouldn't work so it was Hitch or a movie about Joseph Smith, and well, I definately wasn't in the mood for Mr. Smith! Now watching a movie that you are not in the mood for...it's weird...I really had wanted to watch Bowling for Columbine, and I was pretty choked when it wouldn't work...you know that kind of feeling like you get when you are really craving something and you know it's in your fridge at home, and all day, all you can think about is how good it's gonna taste & how bad you want it...and then you get home...and someone else ATE it!!! You know, that feeling! And even though you have a full fridge of other food, NOTHING looks good, cause all you wanted was that one thing you were craving....well it's kinda like that! So I finally decided to just watch Hitch even though I didn't think I was in the mood...and I ended up laughing my ass off! Literally laughing out loud...which does not happen often when watching a movie alone and you are sick and miserable! I may even watch it again!
Tonight I managed to get a small burst of energy...enough to feed my child a partially balanced meal, tidy my kitchen and clean the sinks (I have a thing about a clean sink), and even read and answered all my email. Mercedes was also in a good mood tonight and for some reason thought it was hilarious to run around the house naked, waggin her butt and saying "nana nana boo b00"...gotta love four year olds!
So that's my day...mostly...and I'll add some pics of the baby fish...btw Mercedes tells me the big fish are named Sunshine & polka dot...although my mom tells me the other kids have named them something else...I really don't think the fish care one way or the other, doesn't matter what ya call them, they ain't coming! lol
When I got there the kids were playing happily (miracles never cease) so I grabbed my camera and managed to get a few pictures of the backyard. My mom had bought 6 goldfish and/or Koi at the beginning of the summer, and now although there are only 2 left, they have gotten quite large...and well procreated like rabbits!! I managed to count 18 babies at one point and my mom says she's counted as many as 23...I couldn't see them all today, but I do think I got about 11 0r 13 in a couple of the pictures! I'll post em, so count for yourselves...just remember baby fish shadows look remarkably like baby fish!
After my 5 minutes excursion with the camera I was pretty much worn out again, so I came back to my couch and watched the movie Hitch. Now this was a movie that I had thought would be good, but I wasn't really in the mood to watch it today, cause, well I felt like a bag of poo & didn't feel like laughing about anything. However the disk for Bowling for Columbine wouldn't work so it was Hitch or a movie about Joseph Smith, and well, I definately wasn't in the mood for Mr. Smith! Now watching a movie that you are not in the mood for...it's weird...I really had wanted to watch Bowling for Columbine, and I was pretty choked when it wouldn't work...you know that kind of feeling like you get when you are really craving something and you know it's in your fridge at home, and all day, all you can think about is how good it's gonna taste & how bad you want it...and then you get home...and someone else ATE it!!! You know, that feeling! And even though you have a full fridge of other food, NOTHING looks good, cause all you wanted was that one thing you were craving....well it's kinda like that! So I finally decided to just watch Hitch even though I didn't think I was in the mood...and I ended up laughing my ass off! Literally laughing out loud...which does not happen often when watching a movie alone and you are sick and miserable! I may even watch it again!
Tonight I managed to get a small burst of energy...enough to feed my child a partially balanced meal, tidy my kitchen and clean the sinks (I have a thing about a clean sink), and even read and answered all my email. Mercedes was also in a good mood tonight and for some reason thought it was hilarious to run around the house naked, waggin her butt and saying "nana nana boo b00"...gotta love four year olds!
So that's my day...mostly...and I'll add some pics of the baby fish...btw Mercedes tells me the big fish are named Sunshine & polka dot...although my mom tells me the other kids have named them something else...I really don't think the fish care one way or the other, doesn't matter what ya call them, they ain't coming! lol
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
Dreary day #2...
Another day of rain & gray skies...Blah!!! I woke up feeling even more congested today, so it looks like I officially have a cold...I hate being sick...I really hate being sick with a sick 4 year old...but them's the joys of being a mom!
Broke down today and had to turn on my furnace....I had a three sweater rule...if I was wearing three sweaters & still cold, then I had to turn on the heat...and today I had too! I was trying so hard to make it through August though, but hopefully the weather will warm up again soon. Only too soon, winter will be here...Blah!!!
Didn't do much today, except watch Love Song for Bobby Long and Shrek 2 both of which I thought were very good! I can't believe I hadn't seen Shrek 2 yet, but I finally watched it today with Mercedes and had a few laughs...and I really enjoyed Bobby Long...started it last night and finished it this morning when Mercedes was over at Grandma's. I do miss watching movies with someone though...I mean other than Mercedes...I miss being able to talk to someone about the movie, right after it's over...maybe I need to look for a movie message board! lol I crack myself up sometimes!
Crack-in-the-box phoned tonight to talk to his daughter...he's still not working, and still thinks that there is a hope for us...NOT!!! The best thing I ever did for my health was leave him...I will NEVER live like that again! At least he didn't wait a month to call his daughter this time...and he did take the initiative himself, without me having to call him. Mercedes didn't even want to talk to him at first, but I bribed her with a candy...wonder if he appreciates how much I would have just rather said "she doesn't want to talk to you" and slammed the phone down? Probably not. But there are alot of things I'm sure he doesn't appreciate....things like bedtime struggles night after night when I'm already dead tired, or making what she wants for breakfast only for her to decide she wants something else, and then carrying her kicking and screaming to her room for a time out cause I refuse to be her short-order cook. What about the 20 minutes it takes to get out the door because she HAS to do everything herself, except she can't, so she gets frustrated and screams! Or the times she tells me she misses her daddy and doesn't love me anymore and wants to go be with him, and I just take her in my arms and hug her and tell her I know she misses her daddy, but I love her and she has to stay here with me, but hopefully he will come to visit her or call her soon. Or the times I've printed off pictures of him & put them in frames for her to have next to her bed, so she can look at them before she goes to sleep. What about the 3 am wake up calls for a glass of juice only to get up the next morning and find the full glass still sitting on her night table? Or the email that takes 2 hours to write, because I keep getting interrupted to put on a movie, play a game, get more juice or crackers, or supper, or let her play her computer game? What about budgetting my money to make sure there is enough to buy her favorite cereal and still have enough left over for a trip to the dollar store to buy her a treat? Or does he appreciate the 60 + bandaids I've put on this month, each accompanied by a hug, a kiss, and a snuggle...for each little boo-boo...even the ones invisible to the naked eye. I doubt he appreciates any of it...nor do I think he is even aware of it...but that's ok, cause I don't do it for him...I do it for her...because I don't know where I'd be without her, and I don't even want to try to imagine.
She is my princess, my daughter, my heart and my soul...and I love her with everything that I am...and for her, I would do anything!
Broke down today and had to turn on my furnace....I had a three sweater rule...if I was wearing three sweaters & still cold, then I had to turn on the heat...and today I had too! I was trying so hard to make it through August though, but hopefully the weather will warm up again soon. Only too soon, winter will be here...Blah!!!
Didn't do much today, except watch Love Song for Bobby Long and Shrek 2 both of which I thought were very good! I can't believe I hadn't seen Shrek 2 yet, but I finally watched it today with Mercedes and had a few laughs...and I really enjoyed Bobby Long...started it last night and finished it this morning when Mercedes was over at Grandma's. I do miss watching movies with someone though...I mean other than Mercedes...I miss being able to talk to someone about the movie, right after it's over...maybe I need to look for a movie message board! lol I crack myself up sometimes!
Crack-in-the-box phoned tonight to talk to his daughter...he's still not working, and still thinks that there is a hope for us...NOT!!! The best thing I ever did for my health was leave him...I will NEVER live like that again! At least he didn't wait a month to call his daughter this time...and he did take the initiative himself, without me having to call him. Mercedes didn't even want to talk to him at first, but I bribed her with a candy...wonder if he appreciates how much I would have just rather said "she doesn't want to talk to you" and slammed the phone down? Probably not. But there are alot of things I'm sure he doesn't appreciate....things like bedtime struggles night after night when I'm already dead tired, or making what she wants for breakfast only for her to decide she wants something else, and then carrying her kicking and screaming to her room for a time out cause I refuse to be her short-order cook. What about the 20 minutes it takes to get out the door because she HAS to do everything herself, except she can't, so she gets frustrated and screams! Or the times she tells me she misses her daddy and doesn't love me anymore and wants to go be with him, and I just take her in my arms and hug her and tell her I know she misses her daddy, but I love her and she has to stay here with me, but hopefully he will come to visit her or call her soon. Or the times I've printed off pictures of him & put them in frames for her to have next to her bed, so she can look at them before she goes to sleep. What about the 3 am wake up calls for a glass of juice only to get up the next morning and find the full glass still sitting on her night table? Or the email that takes 2 hours to write, because I keep getting interrupted to put on a movie, play a game, get more juice or crackers, or supper, or let her play her computer game? What about budgetting my money to make sure there is enough to buy her favorite cereal and still have enough left over for a trip to the dollar store to buy her a treat? Or does he appreciate the 60 + bandaids I've put on this month, each accompanied by a hug, a kiss, and a snuggle...for each little boo-boo...even the ones invisible to the naked eye. I doubt he appreciates any of it...nor do I think he is even aware of it...but that's ok, cause I don't do it for him...I do it for her...because I don't know where I'd be without her, and I don't even want to try to imagine.
She is my princess, my daughter, my heart and my soul...and I love her with everything that I am...and for her, I would do anything!
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
Dreary day...
The weather has been cold & dreary here all day...doesn't help the spirits much either. I did go to Tales for Tots with Sonda & Sawyer, Hope and Mercedes. It was offered through the local library and they did a fantastic job! They read stories, then played some games, decorated treat bags, had a pinata & then got to make alien cookies, astonaut pudding and drink tang! Can you guess that the theme was space? lol The kids had a ball and I was very impressed with how well run it was...gotta love the library!
Mercedes wanted to go over and play with Sonda's kids for a while, so I came home and just felt kinda blah, so I started watching a movie, but ended up taking a nap. I don't really feel depressed (well maybe a little), but I sure have not had any energy the last few days. I'm just hoping that it's a cold or something...don't here that too often! lol
I had ordered two of these stamps. I'm very impressed with the company, as the shipping was very prompt and they even threw in a little freebie stamp. Anyways I took them over to my mom's to show her and get my stepdad to make me some wooden blocks to mount them on. My mom and I decided to make a quick trip downtown and on the way back she said to me "isn't it kinda nice to not have to explain to anyone what you did all day, or what's for supper, or worry about what kind of mood they'll be in when they get home from work" and I said "yes, it is nice...it is very nice, but it's kinda lonely"
I've been feeling lonely alot lately. I don't miss Brad per se...I just miss adult conversation. My mom hasn't seemed too interested in just sitting and visiting lately, and I don't really know anyone else yet. My sister, but she's always busy with her 6 kids and well, we would not be BEST FRIENDS if we weren't sisters...FRIENDS maybe, but not BEST FRIENDS! Maybe I just feel it more right now cause I don't have any long distance for another week...but still, there is something to be said about fact-to-face conversation. Without feeling like the other person would rather be doing something else (my mom) or doesn't have time (my mom & my sister). I just miss having someone to watch a movie with...you know I don't generally like talking when I'm trying to watch a movie, but someone to make occasional comments like "did you see that?" or "I can't believe that just happened" and then someone to talk to after the movie is over... like "that was soooo great" or "WHAT a stupid movie" ... just talking.
It amazes me how I can be so glad to have time to myself and yet feel so lonely at the same time. I miss having friends pop by just to visit...I miss having conversations with someone over the age of 4 at the dinner table ... but that's life...you always sacfrice something for something else...so I need to just wipe these tears from my cheeks, and buck up little camper...things could be worse, I could still be living with a alcoholic crackhead....AND THANK GOD I'M NOT!!!
Mercedes wanted to go over and play with Sonda's kids for a while, so I came home and just felt kinda blah, so I started watching a movie, but ended up taking a nap. I don't really feel depressed (well maybe a little), but I sure have not had any energy the last few days. I'm just hoping that it's a cold or something...don't here that too often! lol
I had ordered two of these stamps. I'm very impressed with the company, as the shipping was very prompt and they even threw in a little freebie stamp. Anyways I took them over to my mom's to show her and get my stepdad to make me some wooden blocks to mount them on. My mom and I decided to make a quick trip downtown and on the way back she said to me "isn't it kinda nice to not have to explain to anyone what you did all day, or what's for supper, or worry about what kind of mood they'll be in when they get home from work" and I said "yes, it is nice...it is very nice, but it's kinda lonely"
I've been feeling lonely alot lately. I don't miss Brad per se...I just miss adult conversation. My mom hasn't seemed too interested in just sitting and visiting lately, and I don't really know anyone else yet. My sister, but she's always busy with her 6 kids and well, we would not be BEST FRIENDS if we weren't sisters...FRIENDS maybe, but not BEST FRIENDS! Maybe I just feel it more right now cause I don't have any long distance for another week...but still, there is something to be said about fact-to-face conversation. Without feeling like the other person would rather be doing something else (my mom) or doesn't have time (my mom & my sister). I just miss having someone to watch a movie with...you know I don't generally like talking when I'm trying to watch a movie, but someone to make occasional comments like "did you see that?" or "I can't believe that just happened" and then someone to talk to after the movie is over... like "that was soooo great" or "WHAT a stupid movie" ... just talking.
It amazes me how I can be so glad to have time to myself and yet feel so lonely at the same time. I miss having friends pop by just to visit...I miss having conversations with someone over the age of 4 at the dinner table ... but that's life...you always sacfrice something for something else...so I need to just wipe these tears from my cheeks, and buck up little camper...things could be worse, I could still be living with a alcoholic crackhead....AND THANK GOD I'M NOT!!!
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